Last night I went with an old high school friend to see a movie. As we were walking to our car we saw some kids being stupid in the parking lot and hurried to our car. As I was thinking about those kids we saw, I thought of my own kids. For so long I have wished they would hurry up and grow so we could communicate better or do fun things, or this, or that, but in that very moment.....I stopped. I don't want them to grow up! They get to make their own decisions and experience pain and heart ache and a simple kiss won't just make it all better. I can't choose their happiness, they have to choose it and find it, and it scares me. I don't love the beginning months or years of life because it is so hard for me to not know what they need or be able to communicate with them, but in that moment, for the first time, I wanted time to stop. I wanted them to stop growing so I could hold them and have them and keep them safe. These pictures are from about 6 months ago and they already look and are so different. I think I need to do better at remembering to cherish each day and not wish for the next. The saying is so true, you always want what you don't have....
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Thanks for sharing Lisa! This was a good reminder for me. I know that I also have those days where I think it will be so much easier when_____ happens. Here is a quote I heard the other day, "The days may drag on, but the years pass quickly." So true! I can't believe I have a four-year-old. Anywho, I hope all is well with you. We need to chat soon! Love yA!
Isn't that the truth!! Thanks for the reminder!! :)
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